While the holidays are a time of happiness and good cheer, it’s also a time in which we miss the loved ones that are no longer here. So, as View co-host Meghan McCain faces her first Christmas without her dad, it’s no surprise that she is feeling a bit emotional.
“I’m still waiting for you to call me on my phone, I’m still waiting to get on a flight to meet you for Christmas, I’m still waiting to be woken up from this bizarre nightmare/coma that was the last year watching what happens to a person who fights glioblastoma,” McCain wrote on her Instagram alongside a picture of her dad Sen. John McCain. ”I’m still waiting for a lot of things and guess I probably will be for the rest of my life.”
Sen. John McCain passed away this past August of brain cancer. And while over a hundred days has passed since his death, his daughter Meghan still has memories that haunt her.
“For some reason I cried yesterday at the realization that I’m never going to see you rush downstairs again like you always used to do in the capitol,” Meghan says. “It’s a strange thing to get upset over.”
And in one Instagram post, McCain became like all of the countless in the people today that will wake up Christmas morning without someone they continue to love.
“You’re omnipresent in my life, heart and mind Dad and it still doesn’t feel real you aren’t here,” she wrote. “I try and remind myself that the intensity of the pain of missing you is important because it is a reminder of how my love for you was so incredibly strong. That the pain I carry is the trade off I made for loving someone so purely and I wouldn’t change a thing about it, even now. I love you forever. Stay with me.”